{"id":18064,"date":"2018-03-07T19:47:36","date_gmt":"2018-03-08T03:47:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/unwisdom.org\/chadspace\/?p=18064"},"modified":"2018-03-08T18:46:44","modified_gmt":"2018-03-09T02:46:44","slug":"i-just-made-you-up-to-hurt-myself","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/unwisdom.org\/chadspace\/?p=18064","title":{"rendered":"I Just Made You Up to Hurt Myself"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/results?search_query=nine+inch+nails+only\" target=\"_blank\">Only<\/a> <img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/unwisdom.org\/chadspace\/wp-content\/uploads\/icon-external-link-12x12.png\" alt=\"icon-external-link-12x12\" width=\"12\" height=\"12\" \/> <img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/unwisdom.org\/chadspace\/wp-content\/uploads\/icon-search-12x12.png\" alt=\"icon-search-12x12\" width=\"12\" height=\"12\" \/> (track 08 from the With Teeth LP by <a href=\"https:\/\/www.google.com\/search?q=nine+inch+nails+band\" rel=\"noopener\" target=\"_blank\">Nine Inch Nails<\/a> <img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/unwisdom.org\/chadspace\/wp-content\/uploads\/icon-external-link-12x12.png\" alt=\"icon-external-link-12x12\" width=\"12\" height=\"12\" \/> <img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/unwisdom.org\/chadspace\/wp-content\/uploads\/icon-search-12x12.png\" alt=\"icon-search-12x12\" width=\"12\" height=\"12\" \/> )<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"640\" height=\"360\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/mDsqpeiTqg8\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"autoplay; encrypted-media\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p><em>I&#8217;m becoming less defined as days go by<br \/>\nFading away&#8212;well, you might say I&#8217;m losing focus<br \/>\nKind of drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself<br \/>\nSometimes I think I can see right through myself<br \/>\nSometimes I think I can see right through myself<br \/>\nSometimes I can see right through myself<\/p>\n<p>Less concerned about fitting into the world&#8212;your world, that is<br \/>\nBecause it doesn&#8217;t really matter anymore<br \/>\nNo it doesn&#8217;t really matter anymore<br \/>\nNone of this really matters anymore<\/p>\n<p>Yes, I am alone, but then again I always was<br \/>\nAs far back as I can tell, I think maybe it&#8217;s because you were never really real to begin with<br \/>\nI just made you up to hurt myself<br \/>\nI just made you up to hurt myself<br \/>\nI just made you up to hurt myself<br \/>\nI just made you up to hurt myself<br \/>\nI just made you up to hurt myself<\/p>\n<p>And it worked<br \/>\nYes, it did<\/p>\n<p>There is no you, there is only me<br \/>\nThere is no you, there is only me<br \/>\nThere is no you, there is only me<br \/>\nThere is no you, there is only me<\/p>\n<p>Only<\/p>\n<p>The tiniest little dot caught my eye and it turned out to be a scab<br \/>\nAnd I had this funny feeling like I just knew it was something bad<br \/>\nI couldn&#8217;t leave it alone&#8212;picking at the scab<br \/>\nIt was a doorway trying to seal itself shut, but I climbed through<\/p>\n<p>Now I&#8217;m somewhere I am not supposed to be<br \/>\nAnd I can see things I know I really shouldn&#8217;t see<br \/>\nAnd now I know why<br \/>\nAnd now I know why<br \/>\nThings aren&#8217;t as pretty on the inside<\/p>\n<p>There is no you, there is only me<br \/>\nThere is no you, there is only me<br \/>\nThere is no you, there is only me<br \/>\nThere is no you, there is only me<\/p>\n<p>Only<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Only (track 08 from the With Teeth LP by Nine Inch Nails ) I&#8217;m becoming less defined as days go by Fading away&#8212;well, you might say I&#8217;m losing focus Kind of drifting into the abstract in terms of how I &hellip; 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