Big Ole Stinky Crap!

Excerpt from the novel A Red Death icon-external-link-12x12 icon-search-12x12 by Walter Mosley icon-external-link-12x12 icon-search-12x12

     Jackson had morphine tablets. He said all I needed was one, but I took four against the bright red hurt in my mouth. I was doubled over in pain.
     “How long ‘fore it kicks in, Jackson?”
     “If you ain’t et nuthin’, ’bout a hour.”
     “An hour!”
     “Yeah, man. But listen,” he said. He had a fifth of Jim Beam by the neck. “We sit here and drink an’ talk an’ fo’ long you will have fo’gotten you even had a tooth.”
     So we passed the bottle back and forth. Because he was drinking, Jackson loosened up to the point where he’d tell me anything. He told stories that many a man would have killed him for. He told me about armed robberies and knifings and adulteries. He named names and gave proofs. Jackson wasn’t an evil man like Mouse, but he didn’t care what happened as long as he could tell the tale.
     “Jackson,” I said after a while.
     “Yeah, Ease?”
     “What you think ’bout them Migration people?”
     “They all right. You know it could get pretty lonely if you think ’bout how hard we got it ’round here. Some people just cain’t get it outta they head.”
     “What?”
     “All the stuff you cain’t do, all the stuff you cain’t have. An’ all the things you see happen an’ they ain’t a damn thing you could do.”
     He passed the bottle to me.
     “You ever feel like doin’ sumpin’?” I asked the little cowardly genius.
     “Pussy ain’t too bad. Sometime I get drunk an’ take a shit on a white man’s doorstep. Big ole stinky crap!”
     We laughed at that.
     When everything was quiet again I asked, “What about these communists? What you think about them?”
     “Well, Easy, that’s easy,” he said and laughed at how it sounded. “You know it’s always the same ole shit. You got yo’ people already got a hold on sumpin’, like money. An’ you got yo’ people ain’t got nuthin’ but they want sumpin’ in the worst way. So the banker and the corporation man gots it all, an’ the workin’ man ain’t got shit. Now the workin’ man have a union to say that it’s the worker makes stuff so he should be gettin’ the money. That’s like com’unism. But the rich man don’t like it so he gonna break the worker’s back.”
     I was amazed at how simple Jackson made it sound.
     “So,” I said. “We’re on the communist side.”
     “Naw, Easy.”
     “What you mean, no? I sure in hell ain’t no banker.”
     “You ever hear ’bout the blacklist?” Jackson asked.
     I had but I said, “Not really,” in order to hear what Jackson had to say.
     “It’s a list that the rich people got. All kindsa names on it. White people names. They movie stars and writers and scientists on that list. An’ if they name on it they cain’t work.”
     “Because they’re communist?”
     Jackson nodded. “They even got the guy invented the atomic bomb on that paper, Easy. Big ole important man like that.”
     “So? What you sayin’?”
     “Yo’ name ain’t on that list, Easy. My name ain’t neither. You know why?”
     I shook my head.
     “They don’t need yo’ name to know you black, Easy. All they gotta do is look at you an’ they know that.”
     “So what, Jackson?” I didn’t understand and I was so drunk and high that it made me almost in a rage.
     “One day they gonna th’ow that list out, man. They gonna need some movie star or some new bomb an’ they gonna th’ow that list away. Mosta these guys gonna have work again,” he said, then winked at me. “But you still gonna be a black niggah, Easy. An’ niggah ain’t got no union he could count on, an’ niggah ain’t got no politician gonna work fo’ him. All he got is a do’step t’shit in and a black hand t’wipe his black ass.”

She’s a Shy Girl

Dance icon-search-12x12 (track 02 from the We Sweat Blood LP by Danko Jones icon-external-link-12x12 icon-search-12x12 )

I know a girl, she’s a shy girl
Don’t say much, but I’ve got a hunch:
She got another side she likes to hide
In the back of her head, in the front of my mind
Got a hip in her shake, got a swing in her step
Got a thing in her thigh, and a gleam in her eye
All the girls get jealous, all the guys want more
When the lights go down she hits the floor

She likes to dance!
And tear that place up
When she cuts a rug my eyes get stuck

Dance!
And tear that place up
When she cuts a rug it ain’t enough

I like the part when the guy gets the girl
When they close the door, makes me want a little more
I get that feeling when I watch her go
I can watch for days but let’s take it slow
She’s got that rhythm, she’s got that bounce
The way she moves her thing when she walks out
All the girls get jealous, all the guys want more
When the lights go down, she hits the floor

She likes to dance!
And tear that place up
When she cuts a rug my eyes get stuck

She likes to dance!
And tear that place up
When she cuts a rug it ain’t enough

I know a girl, she’s a shy girl
Don’t say much, but I got a hunch:
She got another side she likes to hide
In the back of her head, in the front of my mind
Got a hip in her shake, got a swing in her step
Got a thing in her thigh and a gleam in her eye
All the girls get jealous, all the guys want more
When the lights go down she hits the floor
And when she dances I can really love

Dance!
And tear that place up
When she cuts a rug it ain’t enough

She likes to dance!
And tear that place up
When she cuts a rug my eyes get stuck

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As Though I Were Revering a Goddess

Excerpt from the novel Naomi icon-external-link-12x12 icon-search-12x12 by Junichirō Tanizaki icon-external-link-12x12 icon-search-12x12

     “Hey! Naomi!” I said one night, shaking her. (I wasn’t speaking to her as though she were a child any more.) She was feigning sleep and had a particularly cold expression on her face. “What’re you doing, pretending to be asleep? Do you hate me that much?”
     “I’m not pretending to be asleep. I just wanted to go to sleep, so I closed my eyes.”
     “Then open them. You have no business keeping your eyes closed when I talk to you.”
     Reluctantly, she opened her eyes slightly. The narrow line of her eyes, peering at me through her lashes, made her face look all the more cold and cruel.
     “Well? Do you hate me? If you do, say so.”
     “Why do you ask such a thing?”
     “I can tell by the way you act. We don’t quarrel any more, but we’re lashing out at each other in our hearts. Can we still call ourselves man and wife?”
     “You’re the one who’s lashing out. I’m not.”
     “I think it’s mutual. Your attitude keeps me on edge. I start getting suspicious, and…”
     Naomi interrupted with her sarcastic, nasal laugh. “Let me ask you, then. Is there something suspicious about my attitude? If there is, let’s see some evidence.”
     “I don’t have any evidence, but…”
     “Isn’t it unreasonable to suspect me without any evidence? You can’t expect us to live like man and wife when you won’t trust me or let me have any freedom and my rights as your wife. Do you think I don’t know anything? I know you’ve been reading my mail and following me around like a detective.”
     “That was wrong of me, but I’m all raw nerves because of what happened before. You’ve got to understand that.”
     “What do you want me to do? Didn’t we promise not to talk about the past?”
     “I want you to open your heart to me. I want you to love me so that my nerves will settle.”
     “I can’t, if you don’t trust me.”
     “I’ll trust you. From now on I’ll trust you.”
     Here I have to acknowledge how base males are. Whatever transpired in the daytime, I always gave in to her at night. Or, rather than “gave in,” I should say that the animal in me was subdued by her. The truth is that I still didn’t trust her at all, but the animal in me forced me to submit blindly to her; it led me to abandon everything and surrender. Naomi wasn’t a priceless treasure or a cherished idol any more; she’d become a harlot. Neither lovers’ innocence nor conjugal affection survived between us. Such feelings had faded away like an old dream. Why did I still feel anything for this faithless, defiled woman? Because I was being dragged along by her physical attractions. This degraded me at the same time it degraded Naomi, because it meant that I’d abandoned my integrity, fastidiousness, and sincerity as a man, flung away my pride, and bent down before a whore, and I no longer felt any shame for doing so. Indeed, there were times when I worshipped the figure of this despicable slut as though I were revering a goddess.