Non-existent

I lay me down to sleep and disappear
Disappear

Why is it you have a question for every single thing I do?
Why is it you say you love me, but nothing is ever good enough for you?
What’s the matter now?
Have another one of these—this will take the edge off

I never knew what it would be
Decisions to be made
They will tell you what you said and what you did to break from the futility and run

You speak through comparison, you speak in tongues
You listen suspiciously for gaps in my adaptations
You have no magic touch, please stop trying
You’re sucking me dry

I never seemed to get it right
It’s like a shadow hanging over me
You were the first, you were the last
If there’s a God, release me from my past